often think in terms of whether or not I feel like someone
knows me. Sometimes I use it as a distancing mechanism.
I don't think I know anyone who I haven't had that thought
about, even my closest friends.
can defend it. I know how it became a default response.
I also see it as petulance. But, ya know how it is with
default things. It happens. I try to stay calm and wait
when I got the same card twice I knew that my friends
know me. I also got a card with a picture of a martini
and a cig in an ashtray. That's me too. Not that I smoke
anymore. And martinis are few and far between. But still.
asked me what I've been listening to and I realize that
I haven't been listening to anything. I'm a singer who
never sings any more. A cook who never cooks. A writer
who never writes. I ripped a bunch of discs into
my computer at work and I've been trying to listen to
music every day.
I'm having trouble writing for all the same
reasons. I worked some overtime and I had a coughing
sneezing thing that lasted for weeks. I still have a
bit of it. I'm tired all of the time. It may sound grim
and sometimes it is. Mostly it's just time on a train
and time doing my funny job and time in the pool and
three times. A bit from which you can see here.
the heading: not sure if this good news, EA hired me.
After a year I have finally left Geppetto's work shop
and now I am a real child. Which means better money
and benefits and a plaque with my name on it. It's not
a bad job. It is a corporation. It is corporate culture.
It is a corporation that makes games and it is in California
so things are mellow. In some ways. But there's no question that
we are in a corporation.
a kind of silencing. I can't talk about it.
no part of me that wants to write about game secrets
on my blog. And I don't want to bite the hand that feeds
me. And things aren't bad. The company has been through
some changes since the days of EA
had a really, really great dinner with George.
Seems like it was a long time ago but it was only a
few weeks. There are pictures of my pasta
and asparagus and his burger.
We had great conversation. It was good.
is in town for a few weeks. We had burgers
with Kathleen. I think I'll get to hang with her some