Some months ago when I was pushing (obviously
not too hard) myself to write more I
wanted to write a post about the changing
light in the morning. I'm awake by 5:00
and out the door shortly after 6:00.
Every morning there was more light in
the morning and more at the end of the
day, peaking on the day after my birthday.
Now the days are getting sorter. I finally
had to accept that I needed to turn
on a light in the morning. I like both.
I like the light and I like the curling
in feeling that comes with the darkness.
I was going to write about it although
I don't know why I thought it would
be interesting. And days and weeks and
months went by.
I'm
writing tonight because I have some
energy. I stayed home today because
I've been having some pain
in my heels and so I went to a doctor.
The doctor is very cool. She has not
mentioned my weight.
I
was hobbling toward the train the other
day and noticed two people hobbling
in front of me. One was an older man
and one was a woman who may have been
my age, or younger. We all had the
same hobble on the same side. I'm not sure why they
were hobbling. And suddenly everyone I talk to has either
had or known someone who has had the same thing I have.
They all talk about the pain. It really does hurt. They
are all sizes and all shapes and all ages.
Most
doctors would be tempted to say something to me about
my weight, which is why so many fat people don't go
to them. It just gets tiresome. I wouldn't argue that
weight might have something to do with it and might
be part of the pain but it isn't useful to mention it.
My doctor has been focused on getting me out of pain.
I trust her. I like her. And I feel better than I have
been.
When
I started writing I was listening to Roy. They play
this
show during pledge often and I can never resist
it.
Now
I'm watching one
of the summer cooking shows. Why? I do not know.
They always irritate me. I was sad when waffle
house girl left despite the fact that I knew she
couldn't win. The best part of the show was when Ramsey
told her he'd pay for her to go to culinary school.
I normally don't dig culinary school but in this case
I think it will give her some basics. She's being a
brat tonight but I still love her. One of the other
shows has left me cold. Why do I watch? The restaurant
business never really lets you go. I dig what Bourdain
has
been writing.
My
All Consuming
link wasn't working. Why? I fixed it but I'm not sure
how. Even when I'm not writing I keep that updated.
Back when a
simple question from George woke me up to the lack
of music in my life I took a bunch of stuff to work
and ripped it. But then I started testing on the PS2
and the Wii and
needed to use the earphones. I'm back on PC now and
hauling more music to work. I'm putting some of that
in the AC list as well.
The
new PC
game is pretty great. I still play on the weekends.
Crazy chick that I am.
Paul
has a
book out, which I just think is so cool! When I
started reading blogs again I was thrilled to see littleshops
for some of the people whose creativity I so admire.
I'm
unfocused. And tired. And not sure what I'm doing.