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August 13 2007 9:57 PM   


Some months ago when I was pushing (obviously not too hard) myself to write more I wanted to write a post about the changing light in the morning. I'm awake by 5:00 and out the door shortly after 6:00. Every morning there was more light in the morning and more at the end of the day, peaking on the day after my birthday. Now the days are getting sorter. I finally had to accept that I needed to turn on a light in the morning. I like both. I like the light and I like the curling in feeling that comes with the darkness. I was going to write about it although I don't know why I thought it would be interesting. And days and weeks and months went by.

I'm writing tonight because I have some energy. I stayed home today because I've been having some pain in my heels and so I went to a doctor. The doctor is very cool. She has not mentioned my weight.

I was hobbling toward the train the other day and noticed two people hobbling in front of me. One was an older man and one was a woman who may have been my age, or younger. We all had the same hobble on the same side. I'm not sure why they were hobbling. And suddenly everyone I talk to has either had or known someone who has had the same thing I have. They all talk about the pain. It really does hurt. They are all sizes and all shapes and all ages.

Most doctors would be tempted to say something to me about my weight, which is why so many fat people don't go to them. It just gets tiresome. I wouldn't argue that weight might have something to do with it and might be part of the pain but it isn't useful to mention it. My doctor has been focused on getting me out of pain. I trust her. I like her. And I feel better than I have been.

When I started writing I was listening to Roy. They play this show during pledge often and I can never resist it.

Now I'm watching one of the summer cooking shows. Why? I do not know. They always irritate me. I was sad when waffle house girl left despite the fact that I knew she couldn't win. The best part of the show was when Ramsey told her he'd pay for her to go to culinary school. I normally don't dig culinary school but in this case I think it will give her some basics. She's being a brat tonight but I still love her. One of the other shows has left me cold. Why do I watch? The restaurant business never really lets you go. I dig what Bourdain has been writing.

My All Consuming link wasn't working. Why? I fixed it but I'm not sure how. Even when I'm not writing I keep that updated. Back when a simple question from George woke me up to the lack of music in my life I took a bunch of stuff to work and ripped it. But then I started testing on the PS2 and the Wii and needed to use the earphones. I'm back on PC now and hauling more music to work. I'm putting some of that in the AC list as well.

The new PC game is pretty great. I still play on the weekends. Crazy chick that I am.

Paul has a book out, which I just think is so cool! When I started reading blogs again I was thrilled to see little shops for some of the people whose creativity I so admire.

I'm unfocused. And tired. And not sure what I'm doing.